What was my fault -?
When I born, at that time I didn't need anything, no bread, no water, and no cloths. I did not know anyone and no anyone knew about me. I was living at sea, there was loneliness, and there I was glade and growing. Many times passed, and my time ended in the sea, then it was necessary to come out of the sea. When I kept my first step in the world, I heard a frightful noise and the first time I saw the people, people were wearing clothes, but I was without cloth. When people looked at me, and they laughed at me, I was in the wonderful situation (condition).
When first time I put out my head from the sea that time my head was very slim, one woman took my head and caught it, I felt that my head separated from my body. I couldn't bear this. I cried and started weeping and said that, I don’t need this world. That sea was good for me there was loneliness, there was peace and safety, there wasn't any noise, but I couldn't do anything, because my time ended. Therefore, it was necessary to come out of the sea.
When I come out from the sea, then I closed into a room. The old woman was catching my head and I was weeping, slowly I came out from the sea, and a woman took sassier and cut my Navel, the other women were looking at me carefully, she laughed and said, she is a girl. Here I got Mother and father, but my parents were unhappy from my birth, because they wanted a boy, but the place of a boy born a girl, that was me, give me name Maikaan, but my parents didn't love me, they were not looking for me. They didn't buy good things for me. I grew in the society without my parent’s help.
After five years God gave my parents a boy. They saw him and they were very happy. He was my brother, and they loved too much my brother. In his they forget me. I was weeping and crying every day, but they didn't take attention at my crying, they were ignoring me every day. When I was seven years old then my parents thought, I burden on them, therefore they thought to put me in the hostel, where the children live without parents, that day came my father took and left me in the hostel and he went back home, that day I lost my parents. I started weeping and crying, I called, papa I love you, please do not leave me here, I am your daughter, I want to come with you, because I am from your blood, I don’t need any new clothes, new boots, new toys, and no any chocolates. Papa I want only your love. Please don’t leave me here. I can’t leave here without you, you need me, I love you, and I am your daughter.
Why you don’t hear me?
Why you do not understand me?
Why you do not take interest with me?
Why you left me alone and going without me?
What was my fault?
But he didn't hear me and left me, I was weeping and crying, I called for help but nobody hears me. In that hostel one worker came and took my hand, showed me one room and said, this is your place, listen me carefully, if you left your room, then it is not good for you and went out. That time no anybody helped me. I was weeping and crying and I tired and slept.
Many times passed, but my parents aren’t coming to meet me. Every month they sent money for me. But they didn't understand, I have no need of money, I need my parents love, I remember them every day.
Whole thirteen years passed, but my parents didn't come to meet me. Now I am waiting for that time, when my parents come and meet me, then I will ask them,
What was my fault?
Was that my fault, I born in your home?
Was that my fault, I was a girl?
Was that my fault, I loved you?
Was that my fault, I didn’t tell you to buy for me good things?
Was that my fault, I need your love?
Was that my fault, I cannot be the owner of your property?
At the end what was the reason you left me alone and went back home?
And till today, you didn't meet me. Now I’m younger and thinking.
When my marriage procession will come?
When I wear my marriage clothes?
When you turn over your lover’s hands on my head?
When I will go my new home?
Whole twenty years, I am waiting for you. Please only one time tells me,
What was my fault?
And forgive me, I will serve you all my life………
Written by Shaikof Baloch